25th entry … homecomimg :)
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: October 18, 2008
homecoming dance is tomorrow night . yay!!
really really excited . i will update on that laterr 
went to the movies today . watched Max Payne . it was amazing
hella scary , especially the first scene . but overall it was good good good .
went with alex, michael, and clinton
ohhh yeah and we saw chelsea + joann + david there. fun stuff . haha
so i randomly called her and she was there at the mall . haha . how weird ?! but in a good way tho .
hmm really tired now . today was a really long day . nd tomorrow will be longer …..in a good way tho
SAT classes + pizza with phil and paul + homecoming
nightt
*michelle
24th entry … why!
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: October 12, 2008
ewwww.
im so sick and tired of this crap people have been shoving into my face. why me ? theres pressure on top of pressure and stress on top of stress. why bother adding more right ?! WRONG !
i didnt plan on getting into any boy dramas this yr . i only wanted to focus on my studies. but these people just dont get it , do they ? if i dont like you then i dont. NONE of you. there are NO maybes or questions . its not my fault that i cant like you the way you like me . im sorry . but that it. i’ve been through enough of these drama in high school and its only been 2 years . this wansnt the high school life i wanted or looked forward to. in fact, the total opposite.
i absolutely hate how my blog has been updated with lots of bad stuff along with a little of good. why cant it be smiles all the way ?! i guess this is just how life is . you get the happy along with the sad. but shouldnt u at least get equal amounts of both ?
ugh . its not my fault that i cant be everything you want or the person you want me to be. im just not that PERFECT. i dont think anyone is . i tried so hard to do everything for you and help you as much as i can. what do i get ? your NEGLECT and IGNORE. am i asking for too much ?
*michelle
23rd entry … its friday :]
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 27, 2008
yesss this week is finally OVER !
it went by super super fast . hehe . i love it when its like this .
so today in physics, we watched this really really really crazy video on the 11th dimension and the string or M theory. pretty legit stuff right there . haha . butt i was half asleep the whole time. ehh . ppl came over to sit with me during the movie so i guess it was kinda fun . at least i had someone to talk to that saved me through boredom. butt somebody kept on hitting me nd punching me, cough* cough* peter and andrew . how mean :[
oh yeahh i went to john muir after school to get some papers signed for National Honors Society . i now have 3 leadership positions and its enough to apply ! yay . i hope i gett in . pray for mee whoever is reading this . i also visited my coach, Mr.Ayala, it was pretty cool . we talked for awhile ...about the upcoming season, tryouts and such :]
well as of now, im surfing online for a friends bday present . i gotta mail it back to taiwan in 2 days since her bday is comin up. i’ve been searching for the past 2 weeks, and yet i havnt decided. this is so hard, i dont know which choice is better …ugh . i saw this website selling bags and wallets from japan and it was soo cute . likee seriously . thats one of the possibilities…hmm . the color is also a problem . should i get light or dark ?! . hopefully i can decide and order by tonight .
SAT classes tomoro morning . im actually looking forward to it :] hehe. my teacher is such a funny dude . nd smart too . he has a cool name too . lol . its Mickey .
kay gotta go look at some more presents now . i will update more laterrr
*michelle
22nd entry …yayuh reppin that 22 !
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 26, 2008
umm if u didnt know. 22 was my bball jersey number and thats why i like it so much . haha . fav number :]
but any waysss. i had SAT classes today, and yeah i know most you guys will be like .” eww” or “omg that sucks” . but it was actually pretty good . lol. not only from a nerds perspective that is . i met some new ppl today and i was pretty happy about that . at least it gives me something to look forward to every thurseday night. i met a couple of people from leland and one from leigh :]
today was a busy busy day. i turned in my app for san jose leadership academy and the form for CSF . im also gonna apply for National Honors Society…if i can get in . the requirements are so strict and theres so much stuff u need to qualify . buttt it helps ur college apps, so why not ?!
eww calc test tomoro . definitely not looking forward to that . hopefully i do good and raise my grade because im not doing so well in that class. sucks ! but tomoro is FRIDAY !! woot. this week went by super fast . no joke . its a good thing tho . i like it this way cus im starting to hate school now . nothing exciting . same shit everyday . blehh .
ughh gotta go do my homeworkk now nd study .
laterrr
*michelle
21st entry … tired .
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 25, 2008
today was honor the game conference. pretty good stuff right there . lol
i felt hella special cuz a lot of the ppl from the team were trippin cuz they didnt get chosen.
haha . jockin my spot :]
butt yeah …we sat at oak grove for 3 hours listening to power point presentations, speaches, and stuff like that . i thought it was pretty neat since there were some really unique guest speakers. there were around 15 ppl from pioneer and 300 others from different schools . saw a couple familiar faces :]
the best thing about today wasnt all about the conference . its that ..i got to miss the physics test ! woot woot . lol . im so lucky and i feel extremely bad for those that had to take it . sucks for you guys . haha . well i just finished reading apush and im talking to a couple of ppl online right now . its almost 11:30 and i still have lots n lots n lots of homework left. sucks ?!
test in apush + spanish tomoro . i really need to study ! but i cant concentrate . fuck this shit.
ohh ohh so weston gave me some dunkers yesterday and they were AHH MAY ZING ! if you dont know what those are and are wondering…..they’re these cookie thingys from trader joe . so goood . oh my god. i had like 7 today and i felt like a fatty . but a happy one at least. for all you guys reading this right now, i sincerely recommend that u go get some . haha . or just ask weston, but i highly doubt that he’ll give them to you, cuz ur just not as special as i am :] sorry folks !
kay im off to my studies now and i gotta reply to a note, which will probably take me like an hour to do since theres so much to write . ugh .
*michelle
20th entry …me against the world ?!
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 23, 2008
so i have finally realize that pain is something that u CAN control, if ur determined enough that is . the effects of pain can be minimized and the causes of pain are possible to prevent ahead of time. you dont need to get hurt if you dont want to, just get away from whats is placing these nasty feelings on ur shoulders. i hate how i get affected by others too easily. one word or even one look can change my entire day, which mostly occurs negatively. these things tend to bother me a lot, definitely way more than i want them to. i try to get myself busy with homework or sports and such, but it just come backs and bite me every 2 minutes. i may look tough or pretend to be because i dont want others to worry about me too much. but seriosuly, im not that strong. i usually just laugh it off with a lame joke and tell others that im fine and nothings wrong. but ..something IS wrong and things ARE bothering me . i find it hard to talk to people about these things, because i never know what to say and im afraid that i dont deliver it well enough so they might get me wrong . so what do i do ? nothing . i just keep it all inside, but it WILL eventually burst.
someday , somehow.
another thing that bugs me a lot is the process apologizing. i tend to apologize for both my faults and other peoples faults. even if i know that i did absolutely nothing wrong, i still feel the need to tell them that im sorry , just because i dont want people to be mad at me. a simple sorry can change the whole situationa and avoid unecessary conflicts right ? the answer may be yes. but …so what ?! why do i care so much ? things dont have to be this way . i know that i CAN change it . but i guess im taking the easier way out ?! i want to avoid conflict so i apologize first , for something that i didnt do. ehhh . why ? i wanna change this . but its hard . i believe that im not the only one whos gone through these types of situations before, why is it so much harder on me tho ? sometimes it feels like ..its me against the world.
and why the heck do i even care so much ? i care about people wayy too much . they may not know it . but i do. i know i shouldnt . but its complicated . i care about family too much . i care about friends too much . why ?! maybe i should stop. but how ? i wish i could build a wall between me and certain ppl, that way i cant see them or feel them, thus wont get affected . maybe . maybe.
why the heck do i try so hard to make things better ? and the outcome is ALWAYS the same. life offers me no variety, its always the same shit over and over and over again . why me ?
*michelle
19th entry ….woot woot :)
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 21, 2008
hmm so today was the Almaden art and wine festival at Almaden lake park . which is literally 2 secs from my house by walking . haha . but anyways …lol . we had to be there at 6:45 this morning to volunteer and stuff, which meant that i had to wake up earlier than that. it sucked so bad . ughh . i hate waking up early. but there were a lot of people there so it wasn’t all that bad. umm lets see , there was karen, alex chang, kim, weston, kevin, april, grace, alex tsai, and some other Leland kids. We were suppose to be working the entire shift but most artists didn’t want or need help and the VIP place was like all wicked so I guess we got some easy hours :] . not that I didn’t wanna work or anything. Haha . butt butt we got sunflowers , even though I wish they were seeds instead of the real flower, but whatever. Its better than nothing . haha . I actually had fun playing with my flower . we also got these house shaped fans . haha . who uses those ?! I kinda just threw it away . ehhh
I wanted to take lots n lots of pictures today , but I failed. Sorry :[
There wasn’t that much stuff to take pictures off and we just walked around the whole day. The dance team from pioneer and cheer team from bret harte performed at the festival. They were pretty good I must say and bret harte had some good music . lol .
Ughh im really tired now and I have like 3 more journal responses for English to do plus like 20 something pages of apush to read . what the heck !
I really want some pearl tea . I think we might go there tonight if I finish my hw in time . ahh . ohh yeah Honor the Game is next thurseday . im pretty excited for it and I get to miss school :] woot . ahh shoot. Speaking of next week, we’re having a test in ap physics, which im destined to fail no matter how hard I try. Fuck me in the head . god. We’re also getting our test back for apush and the essay. Hope I did good. Whoever is reading this pray for me please :] . haha
Kayy im out for now .
*michelle
18th entry…yay :)
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 21, 2008
im here to upload ! weee . haha
so friday a bunch of us went to j town and it was pretty swell i must say. it was me, alex, clint, nathan, weston, and michael. too bad kevin couldnt go because he was sick. i hope ur feeling better kevin
clint got these half cabs that were amazingly adorable. lol . they’re probly the only half cabs that i like so far.
we also went to azuki and purist . me nd alex got these invitation kinda things for a STUSSY girl’s night, which is next friday the 26th. i really wanna go, the person from purist said that they are giving out stussy stuff. hehe. how can i miss out on this ??!! i really hope i can go because this is like a once in a lifetime experience. but we’re probly gonna be the only teenagers there since they are providing drinks so i am expecting everyone else to be legal.
we also went to Quickly’s for some good ass pearl tea . i just cant have enough of it . you wont be able to understand unless your asian or you have good taste in food. cough* cough*. i wish there was one by my house so i can go there 24/7 , sadly there isnt. i really should go talk to the boss or somthing and convince him to open one by pioneer for the good of all our asian american populations. sucks for leland ! haha.
we also went to this japanese restaurant . it was goood . i had ramen ohh nd gyozas . hehe . the lady there was soo nice. she gave us a 15% discount so the bill was only like 30 something bucks for 6 ppl. pretty good deal huh ? after eating we all got shirts from there, well…most of us. it was a really cute shirt, theres a bear on the front eating ramen and the back says the name of the restaurant, which is KUMAKO. i think we should all wear it on the same day, but weston will be left out. suckss.
so it was time to go home and we all hopped on the light rail and we ALMOST witness a FIGHT on there. too bad they didnt start fighting. haha . i was kinda excited too. gosh. well there were these 2 mexican guys shoving each other and repeating the same phrases over and over again. its like ” wussup homie ?! ” or “wucho problem homie !” or ” i aint talking to you bich ” it was soo funny cuz that went on for like 5 mins. haha . just repeating those lines over and over and over again. it was some pretty scary stuff tho. after they got off we all started laughing and mimicking them. silly ppl
kayy tomoro is art and wine festival. gotta wake up hella early cuz i havta be there before 6:45.
and its gonna be a long day . but an amazing one for sure. hopefully i take some pictures .
outt !
*michelle
17th entry …
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 17, 2008
i miss you . . . a lot :[
i wish we could go back to before . back to when everything was alright
back to the time when things were fine and tight.
but on the happier note, i received an offer to be the assistant coach of john muir’s basketball team.
so i guess that makes things a little bit better, even though theres a huge room for improvement.
this is going to make my life incredibly busy. with school + bball team + badminton + SAT stuff .
wow. dont wanna imagine what would happen when all of that are going on at the same time.
ehh . too early for me to start worrying. lol
but once the time comes, i’d probably die.
mind giving me a hand when it comes ?
~ michelle
16th entry … ahhh !
Posted by: michellybelly413 on: September 12, 2008
this following entry will probably ruin ur mood. so if ur happy right now then read this later cuz i dont wanna take away the sunshine and the joy
so …this is like what, only the third week of school and i’m already dying to be done with it ! this “school” thing is seriously stressing the hell outta me . no joke .fucking gigantic loads of homework every single night and tests every single fucking day . i mean , what the hell man ? i knew that junior year was going to be difficult, but this right now, has wayyyy passed difficult, its EXTREME.
i’ve also realized that studying doesnt always help. for the past 2 weeks i’ve studied my ass of for tests and guess what ?! …failure ! is what i got.
no matter how much or how hard i studied, the effort never turns into success. its like you put in money in the vending machine and NOTHING comes out. no matter how hard you shake the machine, theres NOTHING. plus the machine might even fall on you and crush ur guts at the end.
so why even try ?
school has never been so much of a burden for me, never. but now, its taking over my life and ruining it at a speed ( or should i say, velocity) faster than a frikin jet.
adding on, in the negative way, are people who just make it even worse. i hate how people just complains and complains and COMPLAINS everyday. they dont even know what HARD really means. all they do is brag about how good they are when they see others falling and laugh at you every 2 seconds. i also strongly dislike people who are wayyyy conceited. do you really think you’re THAT good ? why dont you just evaluate ur true value and then we’ll talk . you think you’re this and you’re that, but actually ur nothing. more like ….shit ! i dont care if ur having issues or problems, why always come to me when you need help? am i some kind of tool that you use for every fucking thing? dont you ever think that , “oh maybe im bothering others right now, or maybe i should stop talking crap” ? nobody gives a fuck about you. and you can thank me for telling you that if you really want to because once you understand this than life will be hella easier for you. but before that, take care of your own problems and dont drag me in them , cuz i dont care!
i also hate people who asks you for advice then later turns against you or gets mad at you because what you said wasnt what they wanted to hear. if you didnt want my true opinions then why even bother asking ? if all you wanted to hear were the goods then why not tell me in advance so i dont have to think so hard to try and help you out and later on realize that all i did was for nothing. i told you the truth because i thought thats what friends are suppose to do, but i guess…i thought wrong. maybe you dont even deserve my true opinions, maybe i expected too much out of someone who doesnt even give a shit.
kay i feel a lot better now . peace
~michelle
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